August 16, 2018

My Feelings Going Full Time

Now this is a story all about how my life got flipped-turned upside down. And I’d like to take a minute, just sit right there. I’ll tell you all about me and the beginning struggles of Austin’s career. (I hope y’all get the reference…..gah I’m old)


Seriously though, when Austin quit Best Buy to do YouTube full time, it scared the mess out of me. I wasn’t sure what would happen. Would his channel take off? Would we be back in the financial hole we had just got ourselves out of? We didn’t know. My biggest fear was that we were going to suffer financially again. At that point in time, I was working two jobs to be sure that if it failed, at least we wouldn’t be totally screwed. I didn’t have to but you know, just in case. It took me a while to really stop worrying about what would happen, about “what if”. For a bit there I felt like I was working harder than he was. It sucked, honestly, but in the end I’m glad it worked out.


I also envied Austin. I would have loved to have been able to stay home and not go to work, but I knew I couldn’t do that. I felt like I had to be the one to pick up the slack. I had faith in him, though. I believed he’d accomplish what he desired. I wouldn’t ever tell him to not follow his dreams so I wanted to be sure I could do whatever it took for him to do so.


Don’t get me wrong, I’m so happy that Austin went full time! It was weird timing but it was also great timing. It was as if that first month was a sign that he made the right choice and should keep it up. I personally wouldn’t have it any other way. I’ve enjoyed it. He has a great community so there’s so much support from everyone. It’s been a fun, yet trying experience. 🙂


written by mrszee - Posted in Blogs


4 thoughts on “My Feelings Going Full Time

  1. Don’t Ever Forget You Played Such an Important Role in his Success. You Helped him Emotionally, Finicially,and Physically when he started and Still to those day :^)

    1. Thank you for the kind words, NiceIce! xD

      I honestly never really thought about how important I was until I started writing these blogs. Thank you again!


  2. Life is scary and as Ferris Buller like to remind us, it moves fast. I can see how taking a chance like this could be stressful and terrifying but it also looks like it’s paying off to an extent. Zee is appreciated but so are you. You are there supporting him every step of the way and I don’t see how he could do what he does without that, even if the squid sqaud tripled. You are his one person literally by his side. Great writing Ashley.

    1. Thank you, N! 🙂

      Life is very scary but I guess it’s always great to take risks. It has been paying off so far! Still got a ways to go though. I do my best to be as supportive as I can. 🙂


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